this is the lowest point i have ever been in my life and idk what to do anymore
i know that this is probably absolutely fuck all compared to what other people have gone through but fuck this is the lowest i’ve ever been, i thought i was okay, until i started finding myself breaking down every single night, i have a girlfriend and i feel so shit bringing it onto her because she’s amazing and i love her but i can’t help but feel that it’s bringing her down aswell, I lost my job about 6 months ago now, out of nowhere, for no reason, this is where it all started. from that day i’ve been looking for jobs, every single day, so many fucking applications, im with 7 different recruitment agencies, and yet i don’t get a single call from them, and every time i’ve called them, all they’ve said is we will ring when we find something. This is where i started to really question myself yk i feel like this is pretty normal under these circumstances i would have thoughts like “what’s wrong with me” “am i really that bad” yk all the shit like that, but still at this point i had hope yk i had got myself out of some shitty spots so i thought what’s different with this one i can get better, yeah no, ever since then it feels like every day i’m digging a deeper and deeper hole for myself, i’ve stopped eating, i’ll have 1 meal a day, sometimes not even that sometimes i wont eat a single thing and not even feel the slightest bit hungry, other times i’ll have a packet of crisps or a chocolate and i’ll be full for the day, now i should mention eating has NEVER been a problem for me, i used to eat 3 meals a day minimum sometimes i’d even have 4, i used to eat breakfast lunch and dinner and still snack on things throughout the day, there is where i started to question what’s happening to me and even though in my head depression is the first thing that comes to mind, i couldn’t admit to myself that. i have been like this now for 2-3 months barely eating, i barely sleep on a good day i’ll get 3 hours sleep the rest i’m sitting in my bed staring at the ceiling with streams of fucking tears just rolling out. I did something stupid last saturday, felt so shit that i ended up getting angry with myself angry with the world angry with everything and i just lost it and broke my hand, shattered a knuckle and swollen to fuck wrist. i have been playing ps5 as an escape from the world to get away from everything get my mind off everything cuz yk i have no job, so no money can’t go out anywhere can’t do shit so playstation was the only thing i really had to get away, now with my hand now fucked up i can no longer play and fuck that last 5 days have been absolute hell for me, breaking down and crying for literal hours, thoughts of just wanting it all to end, the feeling of no escape from it all i am breaking apart piece by piece and there is nothing i can do about it anymore.update on the pedo news
this is regarding this post : [this one here ](https://www.reddit.com/r/TeenIndia/comments/1inor2l/comment/mcct3k6/?context=3) lot of you must have seen the stuff i posted about a pedo talking to me and the various things . im sorry i couldnt take much action on this , cos im only 17 and boards are a few days . i have shared whatever proof i have with the brave people who dmed and got the info from me , to you i would like to say thank you from the deep of my heart to all of those who refuse to believe he is a pedo , he himself accepted , and too my absolute dismay sent the pics that those 14 year old girls have sent him , i barely stomached to see it , and yes he is telling the truth , they do look very very young . all i know about him so far is that he is 26 m from noida , and his name is sanju . i have screenshots of him accepting that he is a pedo , and him telling that he has blackmailed and hot the explicit pics of these young girls , as well the screenshot with the pics with the nsfw put on them i saw them , ( but i didnt have the courage to screnshot those pics , so i put them back in nsfw form and screenshotted them ) . he gave me his telegram id . i have nothing else . im feeling very scared for those little girls , i have blocked him now . so if anybody is going to take action , pls keep my name and me hidden from this , cos i have boards and cannot handle with prob now . i did all i could from my part . im very sorry i couldnt do more mods i know this is serious , but pls dont remove it . people need to know"> Why are you smiling like that CouCou?!
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Show us those dirty Nicks! Let's see the patina and wear on your boots. Please include leather color, and boot style with your photos![KCD2] Second playthrough
Anyone else starting their second playthrough? Having just finished the game today, I found myself wanting to go straight back in and try a different play style, ideally one where I'm not at the bath house every 5 minutes cleaning the blood off me. Anyone got any interesting 'build' ideas they are trying?
"> Hey everyone, Just wondered what the chances were of getting my parcel today. I avoid Evri if possible but the sender didn’t state the company at the order stage. The chat bot is useless and just states it will be delivered today (not that it knows that)
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It's Work-In-Progress Wednesday! :) Many B/X players are also home brewers. Some have become RPG authors, or even full-fledged publishers. Wherever you fall on the creator spectrum, share an update on your latest project, your most recently finished project, or just the project you want us to know about! :DMate in 1
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