We were being toxic to each other over stupid things now idk what to do.

I probably shouldn’t be writing this I’m trying to have a decent day but I got annoyed and so did he so here we are. I’m 25 and so is he, we finished at the gym and I foolishly wanted a small fry and sandwich from McDonald’s (I make such healthy choices) my husband wasn’t really wanting to go because it’s trash food but he took me and it was a hassle, I waited like 30 min for a mcchicken and fry 💀 my husband was annoyed and I was like “let’s just chill it’s no rush shouldn’t be too long” but then I was getting annoyed at the 15 min mark and my husband was chilling because he was ok the phone with people. I just wanted to leave because it wasn’t worth the wait I knew he’d be annoyed eventually at how long it took but then I was the problem being grouchy. We leave with the food finally after someone who before us got like 12 of what I got. Anyways I dropped a French fry and he was like “another reason I hate McDonald’s” and I snapped. Cause it was an accident I don’t get why he always has be so annoyed when I spill or drop something it’s not intentional. I called him an asshole and he got mad because I said asshole and told me to stfu said I was a bitch waiting for my food complaining and yeah now he’s apologized. I feel like I should because those aren’t the words I meant to use I’m just so tired of feeling like everything I do if it’s making a mess or being clumsy annoys him. I feel like an inconvenience. He used to be worse I’ll be honest we fought once while dating in the car and he told me to get out (we were in our neighborhood) and I’m surprised he didn’t kick me out today. Now I’m not sure. I don’t feel like forgiving him and I know I’m the asshole right now when I’ve told him we shouldn’t call each other names (even in a joking matter like dummy) yet I called him an asshole first. I used to even call him a jerk when we dated until I realized he really didn’t like it and I was hurtful (first relationship idk why I thought that was ok).

TLDR He got angry about me wanting food, then he chilled out and I got mad about it cause it was taking so long for fast food. Then I dropped food and he got annoyed so I called him an asshole and he told me to stfu and called me a bitch. He’s apologized and I’m just mentally shut down about it I know it’s my fault.